I’m trying to stop writing so much about myself. However, transparency of myself seems to be what God is giving me. As stated in the past, my goal is to launch my business plans in addition to becoming a published author. All of that is fine and doable. But there is a scripture that is like a go to scripture for me. I’ve discussed this scripture several times with my wife to encourage her, and sometimes myself as well. Though somehow, I lost sight of the truth of said scripture.
Matthew 6 speaks a lot about worry. It talks about how we don’t have to worry because God will take care of us. But there is a verse in Matthew 6 that to me is a staple. It speaks specifically on what we should do to not have worry cloud or vision and judgment. That verse is Matthew 6:33. In the Amplified Bible it reads: But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His Kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right – the attitude and character of God), and all of these things will be given to you also.
So again, my moment of honesty. I have a desire to change the life of my family. I want to provide for them in a way that allows each of them to freely pursue every dream they have in life and not have to worry about money. Which is not a bad desire to have. I also want everything that I do to be setup in such a way that others can follow their dreams easier. Again, nothing is wrong with that dream. So, what is the issue? The issue is that in the past few months, I’ve focused more on establishing my business and publishing my books, than I have on my devotion to God.
Actually, if I can be completely honest, my devotion to God has been subpar for many years now. I wish I could give you a great explanation as to why my devotion has been subpar, but I can’t. It just has been. At one point in life, I would get up every morning and go straight to my Bible to read. I’d write/pray and just commune with God. But somehow, somewhere, I got laxed. And it really weird, because the desire is there, but the action isn’t. As I type this, I guess ultimately it’s like exercise. One has to start and chose to be consistent even on the days that one doesn’t “feel like it”.
I have a starting point. The dreams that I have will come to pass, because He gave them to me. The journey will however be more smooth, if I commit to and follow Matthew 6:33.
Love you, be blessed – AWS